I'm still alive!

Although at the moment I'm not sure that's such a good thing.

Tomorrow marks the last day of meds for me and "recovered" is not a word that describes how I'm feeling. I'm terrified that this thing is gonna come back even stronger and finish me off for sure and certain this time.

Not that I'm complaining. Five days of being bed ridden sure puts things into perspective for a person...I thought a lot about how guilty I should feel when I have a healthy body while there are those who never get one, and about what a baby I'm going to be if I have to suffer long on my true death bed. But, for now, gone is the Tylenol bottle that I became addicted to, gone are the hot baths, averaging 4 a day in an effort to keep the aches at bay (yes, even my teeth hurt), gone is the diet of nothing but ice-cream. While on it I managed to lose 1-2 pounds a day, all while being pregnant. Not bad, hu? And most importantly, gone are the white blisters that lined my throat and produced fire in my chest. Ya. Those are the guys that would burst and drain down my throat while I tried to sleep. The same guys that made me want to throw up because it hurt so badly just to breathe.

And my husband. My wonderful, beautiful husband.

Here are 10 things that made me fall in love with him all over again last weekend.

1) He took not 1. Not 2. But 3 sick days off to stay home and help me. And that's not including the weekend. I was unable to get out of bed for five days. He says his sick days are the only ones I'll ever get and he's happy to share.

2) He took care of and loved on our sick babies all five days. Making all their meals, giving them medicine, snuggling them, playing with them and putting them to bed.

3)He cleaned the kitchen...more than once! Amazing. I never knew he had those capabilities.

4)He packed up all the kids and went to town just to get me some ice-cream.....twice.

5)He left me the entire bed while he slept on the couch, and not just to escape my germs!(: but so that he could hear the kids should they wake up and need a drink or more medicine.

6)On the nights I couldn't sleep because of the pain or because I couldn't breath if I laid down he would make me a little nest on the couch where I could perch all night and rest while sitting up.

7)He took me to the doctor and waited in the car with all the kids for 2 hours while I waited to be seen and get treated.

8)He never once made fun of me for taking up to 4 baths a day.

9)He never once complained...about anything. (except the snow!)

10)He didn't take a photo of Mama for his Plague post. (;

Who wouldn't love him after all that?! (:


And thank you, thank you, thank you!!! to Emily, Sally, Debbie, Haylee (and whoever else helped) who left a beautiful dinner of chicken soup, rolls and brownies on our doorstep the other day while I was at the doctor! And to everyone else for your prayers. I feel so blessed!

I'm still not feeling up to much so, sadly, we're cancelling Jude and Gwyneth's party this weekend. That makes me so sad! Maybe we'll be able to get to it after Easter. And I, for one, am praying that no one else has to experience the things I've been through in the last week! Stay healthy everyone!


And here's a pic of my Camden, because I love him, too, even though he never got a list);